Sometimes you just quit !

This lyrics may not be about the topic I'm writing about, but the music is very sweet and I think it goes with the post. Just play it while reading me :) 

We all had chances to be great, to shine, to accomplish something big. Some of us just do it, and others are scared to get out of their comfort zone. 


Have you ever been afraid of greatness? Because I am. Constantly. Every second of the day. I'm afraid of accomplishment. it's something I'm not used to. Accomplishment, Greatness, Success, Happiness, ... 

Maybe you didn't get what I want you to understand. I'll give you an example.


Whenever I feel like it I go lock myself in an empty room, away from people and start playing Guitar and Singing. Once, some kids were chilling and playing guitar and they asked me if I played and I said Yes, they asked me to play something for them and I did. And at that moment it was the first time I played in front of actual people, while I played I tried to see people's faces, I was so scared, I was shaking...and then they claped and they said I was good, it felt so Amazing! I loved it, but it was scary....


 But when I had to sing, it was even more scarier. Nobody ever said to me I had a voice, cause nobody had a chance to listen to it, all I knew is that I loved to use it. So I just closed my eyes and tried to do my best. When I opened them, people were smiling and enjoying it. It felt even better than the first time. 
Even though it made me happy, I still was scared to death, and I just run away. 


I tried to be brave, and some friends of mine convinced me to go up the stage with them, but as we hadnt much time to rehearse, I felt I wasn't prepared for that, even though I wanted it so badly, I just left in the last minute, I went home and tried to forget about it. 


Now, I still play to myself. But never in front of people. I guess I'm scared to fail, or worse, to be Great. 


It's playing music in front of people, or just starting a blog that I never maintain, starting an activity that I quit after some months, starting writing a novel that I forget about with time, learning a language and quitting it, starting to pray more often and then  just stop... and the list goes on!


There, I said it, I'm a Quitter! A Big One!

But it shouldn't be that way...right?